Home Sweet Home Ideas!

Lately, I haven't had much to blog about other than I'm SOOOOOO excited that we are moving back in May. Work has been madness! We had to fire the other manager so I took on his hours. Super long days with the little time off cleaning up the house.
The weather here has been gorgeous and we have been taking advantage of it. The other day it was 65 so we drove to the city. Steven went mountain biking and I went shopping! I decided to go to Bed Bath and Beyond and I fell in LOVE with this bed set. It's not girly or flowery.

This is the one I saw in the store. SOOO gorgeous. Way too pricey, but I love the color combinations!

 This one is also really nice and better priced! Bed in a bag! I want a neutral color with an accent color that makes it pop!

Next I went to World Market which is conveniently located next door! I feel in love with this table and matching buffet!

I'm thinking black, NO bench.

Table by itself. Can seat up to 8 people with the leaf!!!

 Here's the buffet. Imagine it in black!

Thinking of a chair like this, just not sure about the color.

 I'd really like an entertainment center that we could store all of our movies and all of Steven's XBOX stuff, but also display some items. Steven has a ton of trophies for a lack of words from winning Airmen of the quarter. It would nice for them to be displayed so everyone can see instead of in our room going unnoticed!

Well I hope you guys enjoyed my idea blog. I've been dreaming of this for a while and after that day of looking around in those two stores it's becoming real that we really are moving home! We don't know how long it will take for us to find a house, but when we do we are going to have a big housewarming/welcome home celebration! :) See you soon everyone!!!!

My New Years Resolution

I think from the age of 16 and beyond, my New Years Resolution is year after year to lose weight and work out. This year, I've decided on something better for my mind.

I've met so many people in my life especially living out here who have been threw tragic events in their lives. Parents losing children to sickness and mental illness. It seriously amazes me that they get out of bed and still enjoy every single day. Everyone has had traumatic experiences or maybe just feels blue now and again. I want everyday to be a great day and to not get so flustered and upset with people trying to ruin my sunshine! I think living in Missouri has really depressed me for so many reasons. I feel like California will be my instant medicine. I will be close to family. Enjoying nice weather for once! House hunting and once we get settled getting Steven his puppy I promised!

2012, has already been a blessing with getting orders to come back home. I'm really to be and stay positive and go HOME! :D

Happy New Year everyone! We'll see you soon!

My MANY reasons to be thankful

This year has had many ups and downs, but as the year is coming to an end it's been a great year with so many triumphs.

First and foremost, I'm thankful that Steven and I are coming home. Steven got orders to Beale AF Base in California. We both needed this for our sanity! We plan to buy a house. I'm excited because I have a better opportunity to find a "real job!" I also get the opportunity to go to graduate school! Things are falling into place and we couldn't be any happier.

I'm thankful that my aunt is cancer free. The same day we found out we got orders to California, it was her last day of treatment! It made that day an even better day! 11-11-11! It's been really hard for me and I think about her everyday, but my aunt is truly amazing and strong! I can't wait to move back and spend more time with her!

I'm thankful that my boob issues are okay. I've had 4 cysts removed and might need more after the holidays. My last ultrasound showed some not so nice tissue that had formed that wasn't there 6 months ago, so in 6 months I will have another ultrasound to make sure it's behaving itself. I'm thankful that it's treatable for the most part and the procedures I have done are a piece of cake for the most part.

I'm thankful for my amazing husband. Steven won Airman of the Quarter for the whole base last month. I'm thankful and so proud of him and his job. I'm thankful for his protection. He gives me everything I want and need plus more, takes amazing care of me in my darkest day of the stomach flu, and loves me no matter what. He's the sweetest, funniest, most genuine person and I'm so thankful he's mine. I'm excited to start a new chapter in our lives together.

I'm thankful for my family. For my dad who I can call about anything medical and he can reassure me and tell me what to do to feel better. My mom just being there whenever I'm lonely and need to talk. I'm truly blessed with amazing parents. I can't wait to come home and live life how it used to be before I moved away.

I'm thankful to all my family and to Steven's family. I can't wait to come home and spend lots of time with everyone. I feel like I've missed out on so much in the past 2 years. I'm thankful for every little thing I have. After getting orders to California, I don't need or want anything else. Everyone's asking about Christmas gifts. I can't even think about Christmas. I'm just so excited to come home. That's all that I want and need. Everyday since finding out about our orders, my attitude has changed. I feel so much happier and positive. This Cali girl, is going home where she belongs and bringing her Cali hubby with her. Life couldn't be any sweeter.

OOOhhhh Missouri

I feel like I've lost my enthusiasm for my blog. My work schedule and Steven's work schedule have been completely opposite since summer started! My days off are his days to work and vise versa. We always seem to have at least ONE day off a week together, Mondays. We have some friends over for Monday night football and I get to cook and feed those hungry boys. Last night, we had lots of guys over for enchiladas. I made 30 enchiladas!!! Steven knows how time consuming they are and always helps.

We've been really excited about Steven's parents coming out at the end of the month. They will be here from the 21st until the 28th. Then my mom will be here from November 5th until the 11th. Busy busy busy! I get to take time off work for both which is much needed.

In previous blogs posted, Novermber 18th is the day we put in for a different base. Steven and I were very excited when we first found out, and now it the stress of everything is kind of sinking in. We don't want our families to get their hopes up that we MIGHT be coming back to California and we don't want to get our hopes up, which I know I've been feeling myself. In my perfect world, we would be transfered to Beale or Travis. I would be able to go to graduate school and we would be able to buy a house. I feel a huge responsibility for myself if we did not get any bases that we wanted because we both do not want to be stuck here for 4 more years. I HAVE to find a job back home in California. Steven needs to go to school and focus on school and I'll focus on bills and work. My success, or lack there of, finding a job in Missouri was devasting to my self-worth. I'm nervous that I will have the same outcome in California, although there will be hundreds of other options because Sacramento has a population of over a million people rather than the town of Warrensburg, MO at 16,000. That's a good probablility of finiding a job right? I pray and ask God to yes, put us where we need to be, but please not Missouri, and to finally let life be easy for a bit.

Steven has spent 5 years here. It's absolutely MISERABLE here. The weather, the seclusion, the distance, and at times the people. Steven and I dated 2 1/2 years apart. I guess we've always had the hard way of going about things. Of course, I'm happy I'm finally here with him, but a huge part of me is missing and I think Steven can say the same. We need and I honestly feel that we deserve somewhere better than Missouri. I've worked so hard and so has Steven. It's hard when others don't travel a difficult path, and they have everything so easily. We just want a break. Throw us a bone!!!!! I kind of ask any of my family or friends or whomever reads my blog, to just not ask about the future with us. When we know, we will tell you. It's almost like the baby question. I get asked SOOOO often, it just overwhelms me and I am definitely overwhelmed by the next 5 months and where my life with my husband will take us. Too many possibilities and too many people to tell and rehash feelings. Love you all and all we want is to be close to our family and friends. Pray for us.

Pink October

To be completely honest, my life was turned upside-down in March. My Aunt Meredith or Aunt Mer to me or Aunt Meredif from her little nephew Ryan, was diagnosed with breast cancer. Everyone hears about someone they know who knows someone who has had cancer. When it hits someone close to you, it seriously knocks the wind out of you. I never thought for a second that she was going to not be here anymore, but all I knew was that I didn't want her to go through treatment or feel sick or mostly to lose her hair. I remember talking to her when she first found out and just having her telling me exactly what was going to happen helped me relax. I know my aunt is an ass kicker, and she's a fighter!!!!
From the beginning I had told Steven that I wanted to cut my hair. I had thought about it for years, but never did it. I had the biggest reason to do it this time. I only wish I could see the young girl my hair went to or be able to just give it to my aunt. It hit me incredibly hard that she needed chemo. Chemo=hair loss. I had to be supportive and not show her or lead on to how upset I was really feeling about all this.
I was the flower girl in her wedding to my Uncle Mark. She played Barbies with me. She always had the most amazing outfits on and always new what the coolest thing was right now. She was my cool, hip aunt who I looked up to, and still do. She flew in from L.A. just for the day for my bridal shower and was close by at my wedding. Growing up and becoming a young woman I've looked up to her so much. She's driven, successful is an understatement, gorgeous, sweet, caring, kind, smart, hilarious, giving, and she spoils me rotten, which I really don't deserve, but I thank her for every little thing because I'm so grateful for her.
I was really excited to see her in June when Steven and I went home for 2 weeks. I was nervous to see my aunt. I didn't know what kind of state she would be in. My Uncle Tim and her picked me up from the airport and she looked exactly the same, just with a do-rag on her head. I couldn't help but to cry. I worried myself so much about her and she was exactly the same. I was so happy just to finally hug and see her. I had a fantastic time as always in Venice.

We wore do-rags all around, ate amazing food as always, and just hung out on the couch. I needed that trip to make sure she was okay. I know I can't do much for her or anyone who is sick back home, reguardless where I live, but seeing her was just amazing. Nothing had changed. She was still my Aunt Mer. 
August 25th, was her last day of chemo. My birthday is on the 27th. Greatest birthday gift I could ever ask for. This week she started radiation. 5 days a week for 7 weeks.

Check the girls no matter how young you are.Wear pink!!! Eat yogurt and donate lids. Walk, run, or bike for the cure!  And yes, real men wear pink! Too many women and families have to hurt because of cancer and we need a cure ASAP!

Love you Aunt Mer <3 

Do-Rag Club Active Member :P

Goodbye September

Steven and I haven't been up to much lately. Lots of work work WORK! Steven's parents are coming at the end of October, so it's given me an excuse to FINALLY decorate our guestroom and the kitchen a little. Must say it was a blast! I'd been feeling a little blue, so it kept me busy and brought me joy.
I've been feeling really great lately! My adjustment to Missouri has not been an easy one. It's been quite depressing with not really having any friends. Being far away from family when things happen breaks my heart. It's also taken a toll on my selfworth. I thought I would have a better shot with the job market with my degree, reguardless of the economy, but with the next town down the highway, Warrensburg, that's population is 16,000, there's not much to choose from. I am very grateful for my job, but of course, I don't EVER want to work retail again!
NOVEMBER 18th is the date that Steven gets to put in for a base of preference! First round we are putting in for Travis and Beale in California. We will hear back within a week or two. If we don't get it, then we will try for bases in Washington, Colorado, and Idaho. Anywhere WEST!!! So hopefully, by Christmas we will have great news for our family. I know everyone wants us closer. I'm hoping that if we get a base of preference I can start grad school, fingers crossed, in Fall of 2012! Makes my heart smile just typing that! Working crummy jobs, drives me even harder to further my education. It's not a secret how deeply I want a family, but I never want to worry about money and I want the best for Steven and I and our family. I want my children to go to college and be successful! Steven will also be able to finish his Bachelor's Degree, which is extremely important to me. I know how great it feels to have that accomplished, reguardless of where my degree has taken me now. My Grandma Sandy has always told me, that no one can take your education away from you. It's a comforting feeling.

Boobdate

It's been SO crazy with work but here's an update...or a boobdate about...the girls! September 1st, I had two of my cysts drained. It went very well and helped to have Steven there. I don't do well at all with needles, but I focused on breathing and trying to stay calm. I didn't really feel anything until she hit a nerve. The fluids were sent to the lab and they came back benign which we all knew, but that's always good news! Today, I went back for the other boob. Depending on my cycle the cysts are different sizes, so they were bothering me last week. She did a quick breast exam on both boobs. Right boob she was even amazed at how well they felt. NOOOO CYSTS! Lefty had a small cyst that was pretty hard that she removed no prob, but the other one was an inch long and very flat. She used the ultrasound machine and it was kind of an ordeal but I stayed calm and it was over soon! The fluids also are getting sent to the lab and I should hear back soon. Ultrasound again in November and then a check up with Dr. Switzner soon after to make sure everthing is looking great still! Dr.Switzner is such a great doctor! Thank goodness for helping me and my girls! In good spirits and feeling well, tomorrow I'll definitely be sore but feeling positive with having the cysts gone!